My Life (10-22-14):
Tired of hiding behind a mask Acting as if everything alright Days pass by, each like the rest Feel like I'm losing the fight Seems like around every corner There's torment and pain With no sunshine to be seen Like living my life in a constant rain A father who passed When I was 18 months old A mother who was distant Life started out pretty cold Growing up with no friends Or at least none that where true Now you can kind of see why My life feels so blue That’s just the start An aunt’s life was suddenly taken After a year of harassment by her ex We were all visually shaken Oh, but there’s more Everyone found out I’m gay Living in a small town You bet there was hell to pay I suffered verbal & physical abuse Virtually on a daily basis So much so that I longed For some sort of oasis Many times I wondered why go on When everything is against me After all it would surely Death would set me free No one would notice I was gone After all I wouldn’t be missed The world would go on As if I never did exist Had I acted on these thoughts I would have missed out On meeting someone special Someone who removes all doubt If even for a short time I can forget the troubles of life All the pain and heartache Loneliness and strife For this person is beautiful Personality brighter than a star For no one should you Change who you are By: John Thorpe
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Goodbye (10-24-14):
Goodbye cruel world I’m leaving you today There’s nothing you can do Nothing you can say Goodbye all these memories None were good anyway Just memories of a life Filled with decay Goodbye all my dreams None of which came true Not even the smallest one Even after all I’ve been through Goodbye all the hope You’re escape already made To somewhere else Leaving me broken & frayed Goodbye to love We were always distant So much so it seems You were nonexistent And, Goodbye all you people Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye……….. By: John Thorpe Never Giving In, Never Giving Up
Never giving in, Never giving up Even though the day seem rough I know there will be a brighter day I just have to get through today Even though the days are filled with gloom I don’t want to be one that’s gone too soon I’ll let these tears fall and wash away the pain For my heart they will not stain No matter what you do, I love myself I won’t put my heart on a shelf Things I can’t change is what I fear Fear that you don’t love me, when you once held me so dear Tomorrow’s another day And all I have to say Is never giving in, never giving up To those who my dreams they tried to shatter I know in my heart that I matter For my dreams will rise above any great fall Until they are a million feet tall Like a building over looking the street Stronger from the attempt to defeat I will rise from the ashes like never before Waiting for the next thing life has in store My life has meaning despite some people thoughts In the end I’ll be glad that I fought By: John Thorpe Where Do I Start (02-13-14):
I want to know Where do you start? To even begin To mend a broken heart Is there some magic potion Some magic spell Someone please tell me So I don’t have to yell My heart is in so many pieces They’d fall through your hand Each piece so small Like grains of sand I try to put them together The best that I can Then another heartbreak And I have to begin again In my dreams Is where I long to be Where I can be anything And oh so free To live in my dreams Would be a great escape From the lonely world That I currently face To walk along the beach Holding someone’s hand With the love of your life Leaving footprints in the sand Not having to face the world alone Each day would be better than the last To build a life anew And to forget about the past Until then, please tell me Where do I start To even begin To mend a broken heart? By: John Thorpe Heart of Broken Stone (Forever Alone) (02-11-14):
Sitting in my room Feeling forever alone My heart lying on the floor Like pieces of broken stone I feel like I’m losing the fight Just want to live in my dreams Where the days are forgotten Where I don’t feel like I want to scream I don’t think I’m asking for much Just a chance at a different life There has to be something different Something more than pain and strife Sometimes I wonder “Why did I have to be born?” To live a life so crestfallen With a heart so broken, so torn I’ve been through pain & heartache More than anyone should bear My heads filled with the question Does anyone really care? A father who died before I was two A mother who despises me Why does life go on? It seems like everyone hates me As I lay on my tear stained pillow Every tear makes wetter Sending up a prayer, in hopes That tomorrow will be better Just have to find the strength When all hope fails One day I know My ship will sail By: John Thorpe |
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